stupidity of a man

Everyone have secrets, especially when they do something wrong. The big example is George Washington, he cut his father's apple tree and he tell the truth to his father. And because of his honesty, his father forgive him... Yeah, everyone knows that story. For some of us it feels right to do such things of honesty, hoping that mercy will be given.

Just like what I did last night, what I believe about honesty over everything in my life. I don't like people lying to me, so do me lying to people. I try to honor honesty by being honest of course, but George Washington rules don't apply to me.

Early in the afternoon I kissed a girl, and exactly 5 hours later I can't hide it from my girlfriend. I told her how sorry I am and I know what the worst consequence will be. But I still hope a miracle happen and make the George Washington rules apply.

But, I'm sorry babe there is no such things as miracle. Now, I lost my trust to honesty, forgiveness, and especially I lost my trust to my self. I lost my trust to my self for making the right decision. I need to be healed.

For you that wanna know what happen after I told her, she gets mad of course and I hope the worst is she will dump me, but what happen is we have a little talk I told her how sorry I am, how did that happen and listen to her what she thinks and what her decision is...

She doesn't tell me yet, but I'm ready for any decision she makes...